Hello there guys!
I think it's about time i made a journal to update you about what's going on and what the future of this group might be.
[PERSONAL PARENTHESIS STRONGLY RELATED TO THIS GROUP, AT LEAST SKIM THROUGH IT BECAUSE IT'S IMPORTANT TO UNDERSTAND WHAT'S GOING ON]
As many of you probably already know, I'm currently working 101% on my personal project, a comic i have high hopes for, and in which i'm investing everything i have.
It's an incredibly ambitious project, which requires me to keep studying and improving as quick as i can, and it's not just about improving art ... i really wish it was "just" about that (which is actually enough to keep one busy for his entire life, considering the amount of knowledge and practice there is to acquire when talking about art xD)
I'm talking about creating a whole detailed world here.
From its geology to its history to an effective plot for the main characters and so on.
And to be able to manage such a big project, you have to possess knowledge on pretty much any topic, which is why i still wasn't able to resume working on my comic.
But i'm very very close to the end of all these studies, that encompassed quite a big number of topics, but certainly nothing worthy of any degrees, since it's nothing too accurate or in depth.
So i spent and still am spending all my free time studying these topics, to be able to say "i know what i'm doing, i'm not placing rivers and mountains just where they look pretty, i'm not making up things and am actually researching anything i'm going to deal with, from geography to biomes to societies to medieval stuff to combat to forging weapons to asisaidanythingi'mgoingtodealwith".
So yes, this is definitely time consuming.
Why did i choose to do all this alone?
Because everyone who follows me knows i love knowledge in general, and i pretty much love learning anything and everything i can.
With this project, i was able to kill two birds with one stone: to keep learning and creating at the same time, both of which i could never stop doing.
So i made a project out of what i want from life and what i love doing - which why it's veeery important for me to succeed and to take my time to make what i know can be a masterpiece, if i don't screw up anything and if i keep working with the passion i feel when i work on this project.
I'm a 23 years old italian guy and i chose not to take the traditional route of going through a university and then finding a job.
I think the internet showed us that stuff is old, especially the idea that you have to do what others want you to do in order to get a job and be able to buy some food - you know, the bare necessities to survive and be able to actually have a body you can move to create art, to begin with. xD
Not to mention that i think focusing on a single topic or bunch of topics is quite limiting, and i strongly believe it means missing a huge part of what life is: everything.
But that's, of course, my personal belief;
i have no intention to force it on anyone who doesn't feel the same passion and wonder towards anything this chaotic bunch of apparently nonsensical things we call life - which we all seek to "explain" and rationalize - can offer.
But, for the ones reading this and who do feel this passion and wonder - i'm sure you can relate.
[END OF THIS PERSONAL PARENTHESIS YOU-SHOULD-READ-ANYWAY-TO-UNDERSTAND]
What does all this personal blabbering have to do with this group?
Well, i think it's clear - i'm basically apologizing for having disappeared and for the fact that i'm working on my personal goals instead of focusing on you guys and for having apparently stopped promoting/supporting you - something that i can understand can seem quite selfish, and i agree, especially after all the talk i did about artists not sharing anything and not caring about other artists, which is the very reason i founded this group.
I'm 101% positive i will be able to resume supporting and promoting better than ever, once i'm done with my studies, because i'll have a better understanding about what i'm doing - and how i can help anyone.
I'm working on such a huge project because i know what i want to convey through it, and i also hope the very fact that someone was able to manage such a huge project will be an inspiration for you to keep working and never give up, because the only limit we have as human beings is our passion and our sheer willpower - the willingness to break our limits, which has propelled humanity throughout all its history up to where we are now.
More than anywhere else, this holds true when talking about creativity.
Art and creativity are about what you have inside, about your very essence, so make sure you have a beautiful inside, and beautiful art will come as a consequence.
But, at the moment, i'm just a poor fool talking about the power of passion and writing cheesy blabber, and i don't have much proof, and i also ironically stopped sharing my progress at some point because i realized that by doing this i could focus much more on working instead of talking about it, putting my money where my mouth is.
It's like a skinny guy trying to motivate you and inspire you to become a bodybuilder even though you are skinny as well and you don't believe you can change what you have - it's not going to work that much, i guess. xD
So, by making my dreams come true, i hope to inspire anyone who is following me to challenge their demons and to challenge their own limits, because the only limits you have are the limits you believe you have. You will never find out whether or not you can jump that gap between you and your dreams until you take the leap and actually do it - but if you decide to do it, make sure you believe in what you are doing, that you have faith in yourself. Otherwise, you are not going to put into it all the energy you truly have, and it most likely will result in a failure - which could become the proof you will rationalize to make you feel like you cannot do it.
In that regard, i hope, if i ever manage to make all this blabber become tangible, that my message will be strong enough for you to get inspired and keep challenging yourselves over and over - until you make it.
In order to receive, you have to give, and if i ever were to succeed i would feel like a leech if i didn't use my personal accomplishments as a sort of inspiration bomb.
Something i believe any person who gets some visibility should do, considering the amount of people following them.
Sooooo... yep! All this long winded talk is to get to my point:
Hidden pencils is something i still strongly support, and i will resume working actively to improve and make it grow as soon as i feel i have the right to do so - by showing that mine isn't just talk, but also something very tangible.
If i for one fail in what i'm pursuing, then it means i have no right to inspire anyone, and will gladly find someone who can manage all this better than i have done.
But i won't give up that easily, because i know i'm giving this all i can and i know that it means i can do it!
I will make my comic become a masterpiece and i'll keep sharing my passion to anyone i can - because when you feel too much fire burning inside you, it just can't be contained and you have to share it!
YOU WILL ALL CATCH FIRE, I PROMISE! (never a weirder sentence was used to end a "motivational" speech)
((so i cannot end all this like a pyromaniac crazy mage))
I hope my message correctly came through all this endless long winded speech without any distortion, sorry for having forced you to read so many words. xD
But this is just what i feel about Hidden Pencils and all i feel i had to say.
I also understand you may judge this stuff as a form of self-appraising, but really, all i want is just to show you that everything can be done, especially when we talk about making a living through your art doing what you love, instead of going for jobs that will buy your time with the money you get from them - the only problem is that there's no currency bigger than time, so you would be putting aside your real dreams and what would give you a wonderful and fulfilling life to instead work and get stressed about not being able to enjoy your life, living also thinking about "what if".
You will end up merely surviving - not living, and there's a huge difference.
Take the leap, never look back and have faith in yourself, believe in what your willpower and passion can accomplish!
We live in a time where internet made it possible for us to achieve what we want and show the world who we are and what we are worth,
let us charge together to show what artists can accomplish and how wonderful our soul is,
CHAAAAAARGE!! (this seems a more epic and appropriate way to end this wall of text)